Thursday, September 4, 2008

Crazy Cook Ingredients

My life has been full of shinanigans for as long as I can remember. I look at others and wonder how they got off so easy and it turns out - we all have our own chaotic lives - some people just know how to hide it better than others. I have been told many times that I need to put a filter on my mouth because I tend to say whatever I'm thinking (good & bad). It's a curse I bestowed upon myself the day I found out who my real father is. Btw - It was when I was 20 & I was in a good place (mentally) at the time so I didn't let it screw me up too much. So when the man who I thought was my father told me that - the puzzle started fitting into place. I wasn't upset b/c all of a sudden everything from my childhood made sense. I'm the way I am b/c my mother & biological father have so many of the same qualities that were passed on to me. I love it! And all this time I wondered why my 4 other siblings were so different from me. The kicker here is - the father of my siblings, whose name is Ralph, told me this so that I would be pissed at my mom & hate her. It didn't turn out that way. My mother & I had a sweet little chat & she was honest with me about it all & we became closer b/c of it. And on top of that my 'real' father is in my life & my children's lives more - so it kind of backfired on him. I wondered why 'Uncle Buzz' came around everytime I had a new baby - He wanted to see his daughter's babies!